Scary bath

I was finally forced to bathe ah bi. The first time was with the help of my husband. Second time was in my mil’s house w/o my husband’s help. I almost strangled him when I held his neck instead of his arms. He choked and I quickly turned him to c if he was alright. I always ended-up soaking in sweat and water after each bath. He was stoned whenever I bathed him. He seems to sense the danger. He didn’t enjoy it and was worried which can tell from his expression.